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I'm feeling lost. Yet i'm in a familiar place.
I'm feeling alone. Even though i'm surronded with people.
I'm not sure if i'm in reality. Yet i don't feel like i'm in a dream.
I don't know who i am. Yet i know almost everything about my life.
I'm confused. Beyond sanity.

I'm not sure what i am in my soul. Even though i feel human in all other aspects.
In my soul, i feel like i'm meant to be something else. But i don't know what.
I am a human. But i feel like i'm something else... something unknown.
I don't know what i'm supposed to be. But i want to be something else than a human.
I'm confused. Beyond reason.

I'm lost in my fantasy. Yet i apper normaly to others.
I'm losing grip of my reality. But i'm not sure that i was in reality from the start.
I'm flying high. Yet i'm way down.
I'm lost between realities. Yet i've been found in this reality.
I'm confused. Beyond normality.

I hate my family. Yet i love them.
My friends piss me of. Yet they make me happy.
Music makes me sad. Yet it makes me glad.
I live in reality. Yet i spend my time in fantasy.
I'm confused. Beyond everything.

I will remain confused... untill the jugement falls upon me.
I will remain confused... untill i find my reality.
I will remain confused... untill my mind settles down.
I will remain confused... in an eternity.

How do you feel? Confused? Or sertain?
Only you can tell that. Not me, not he, not she, only you.
If you are unsertain about that, you must be confused.
But if you know... you could be anything.

I'm confused. But i will find the answer to my confusion.
I'm confused. But i'll kept searching for my answers.
I'm confused. But i won't give up to that.
I'm confused. But not even an eternity can stop me from finding my answers.

I won't give up. I will never surrender.
I will keep on fighting. Untill the end.
I will keep standing. Even if my legs are cut off.
Nothing will stop me from finding my answers.

If you stand in the way. I will find a way to pass by you.
If you threaten me. I won't listen.
If you hurt me. I will ignore it.
If you stop me from moving. I will defeat your poison.

When you are passed. You will see what you did wrong.
When you are passed. You will ask me for forgivness.
When you are passed. You will protect me.
When you are passed. You will try to help me find my answers.

When my answers are found. I'm done.
When my answers are found. I'm finished.
When my answers are found. I'll know everything.
When my answers are found... I'll discover, who i am.
©2008-2009 ~Jerkera
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Long time since my last devotion.
Anyway, this is a poem of how i used to feel some time ago, confused over life and reality. Most of this i've discovered what they meant, but i still have periods when life and reality confuse me. What do you think? Please tell me!

See ya, Jerkera the Writer
(God! How many titles do i give myself?)

This poem is copyright to, Jerker Björnelin
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Quite poetic yourself :D

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Being random is awesome...
EMBRACE THE RANDOMNESS!!! 8D
You think so?

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Artisism: Writing
Personality: Varying
Control: Absolutely NON!!! *lots of explosions*
And there you have me! Jerkera Dragonclaw! Pleased to meetcha! :D

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Avatar by: ~SonicChao95
Yes, yes I do :3

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Being random is awesome...
EMBRACE THE RANDOMNESS!!! 8D
wow... that is what i call true poetry right here. kind of sounds like something i would say, (and it's how i feel right now) but you beat me to it. i'd honestly like to hear-- err, see in this case-- more. :)

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Nothing can stop the man with the right mental attitude from achieving his goal; nothing on earth can help the man with the wrong mental attitude.
--Thomas Jefferson

that sounds like me. :|
And I who keep telling myself I'm not that good. And yet people seems to think the opposite. Thanks uh, dude?
Oh anyhow, 'till next time:

See ya, Jerkera the Player

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Artisism: Writing
Personality: Varying
Control: Absolutely NON!!! *lots of explosions*
And there you have me! Jerkera Dragonclaw! Pleased to meetcha! :D

If you like vampires and games: [link]

Avatar by: ~SonicChao95
funny thing is, whenever i do something, i say the same thing. (even though i haven't submitted anything on dA yet...)

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Nothing can stop the man with the right mental attitude from achieving his goal; nothing on earth can help the man with the wrong mental attitude.
--Thomas Jefferson

that sounds like me. :|
Really? That's funny.
Maybe you could show it to me? So I could tell you if it seemed good enough for dA.

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Artisism: Writing
Personality: Varying
Control: Absolutely NON!!! *lots of explosions*
And there you have me! Jerkera Dragonclaw! Pleased to meetcha! :D

If you like vampires and games: [link]

Avatar by: ~SonicChao95
um... its not submission related. its more like "OMG look what i found" type thing. and they're put in the journal for anyone to see, usually links to other web pages.

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Nothing can stop the man with the right mental attitude from achieving his goal; nothing on earth can help the man with the wrong mental attitude.
--Thomas Jefferson

that sounds like me. :|
Oh, I see. But if you should happen to make something, you could show it to me and recieve my critique. But only if you want to show me of course.

--
Artisism: Writing
Personality: Varying
Control: Absolutely NON!!! *lots of explosions*
And there you have me! Jerkera Dragonclaw! Pleased to meetcha! :D

If you like vampires and games: [link]

Avatar by: ~SonicChao95

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